Sunday, September 11, 2011

Eye of the Storm

I have a feeling that I am not fully processing my dad being gone yet. It's not real until I go home and he's not there. I have an intense sense of dread. I've been going over and over in my mind the simple act of walking into the house. Will I walk through the garage where it happened or will I avoid that space and walk through the front door. We never use the front door. It would be weird, but I don't want to think about where it happened, and being in that space seems like it would be too hard.

Justin has been tying up loose ends here and packing up the rest of the stuff in our apartment. Liam and I have been with K, T and H pretty much non-stop. I honestly have no idea how we'd be getting though all of this without them. I think it comforts my family to know we're being taken care of here.

This is our last full day in Dublin. Our flight to Detroit (with a lay-over in Chicago) leaves tomorrow afternoon. Please pray for a safe and smooth journey for my little family.

Dad, Jude, Kelly, me, Mom & Liam, summer 2010


  1. I hope that your journey here is safe and uneventful. I wish that you were coming home to something better and I we were seeing you for the first time here in different circumstances. My grandfather's death never hit me fully until I was at their house and he as not there, it is hard and your sorrow is so much more (I was not close to my grandfather.) But he did love all of you and will be with you always in spirit and in you all. I know I already see parts of my dad in Franklin... We love you all and will be here for anything you might need.

  2. Safe travels. Try not to play it all out in your head to much as the anticipation will stress you out even more (I know, easier said than done). You can't predict how you're going to react when you're actually walking up to the house. I'm praying for you as it's not going to be an easy moment. xx

  3. I am so so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you and your family are going through and know it must be especially difficult being so far away. I wish I could say something comforting but know you're in my thoughts and prayers. Your dad sounds like an amazing man. x